Airy nodded her head though the motion was sort and lazy since she didn't want to lift her head off of Cassidy's shoulder.
She didn't want to get used to sleeping alone but she understood the necessity. If she went home... she'd be alone and would likely have to get used to it too. "Well, if you ever don't want to be alone. You should come to my room. I'd say let's do it both ways but that doesn't really seem fair." Since she'd just admitted to not liking sleeping alone.
"I look too. I mean you were there when we were both ogling Thor." That had been a fun relaxing afternoon.
Airy shifted a bit as Cassidy finally answered her question. She looked up at him and tried to figure out what he meant. "Too often?" Did that mean he did sleep around a lot more? Did he not want too? Did he feel bad? It was hard to tell but his tone had changed and Airy didn't know what that meant.
After this whole mess she didn't really want to assume anything else.
"Wait.. what?" Airy wanted to ask about his previous inflection with the words 'too often' but now she was also thinking about Matt. "He said that? He always keeps telling me he doesn't want to come between us. I kind of talk to him about things hoping for a level of perspective or balance... we see how that might not always work anyway." She pouted a bit.
Airy's been on a whirlwind of emotions in the last twenty minutes and they were all jumbled together now.
“Well, he may not want to break us up, but I don’t think he’d mind comin’ between us, if y’know what I mean.”
Look, Airy, you’d put it right there for him. He was even going to dare a bit of a wicked smile. Comin’ between us. Eh? Eh?
He let his effort to lighten the mood linger in the air for a moment before going on.
“Yeah... a bit too often.” It was hard to explain what made it feel like that. He wasn’t exactly bothered by the sex itself. More... more the framing of it. “I mean, I’m not one to put up much resistance to temptation, most days. And people here, they don’t seem to put stock in any sort of commitment whatsoever. One person... I asked if it bothered her that I had a girlfriend, and she laughed in me face. Bloody brutal, now that I’m thinkin’ about it.”
He didn’t know what to add to that, beyond: “I’m sorry, Airy. I shoulda known better.”
She smiled at him and then playfully punched his shoulder, "You know what I meant. Though, yeah, I imagine him being literally between us maybe won't be too bad or maybe I can be in the middle since you guys are taller than me..." This wasn't what she'd planned to think about right now.
The thought was waved away as she focused on Cassidy's explanation.
"Wait. You're serious. Someone actually laughed at you?" That pissed Airy off. Not that Cassidy slept with this person, that was it's own kind of bad judgment, but that they had laughed at their relationship. "Wow." She sat back a little bit, just absorbing that knowledge. "And you slept with them?" She had no really strong feels about that part, maybe disappointment and then just annoyed that this person had laughed at their relationship.
She hummed softly. "So, you're sorry." Cassidy was sorry a lot sometimes but sorry didn't mean that anything was going to change. "Is that like, you're going to maybe be a little more... I can't think of a nice way to say it." She was thinking something along the lines of self respect. She wanted people to know they were dating, she'd told people, but that's because that relationship should be respected... not laughed at.
Maybe that really bothered her.
"Be honest with me Cass, is it weird that the laughing part of the story bothers me more than the sleeping with part."
"No. No, we're on the same page, there." It was cruelty of it that was striking him... striking him now, now that he was looking at it from a semi-sober perspective.
"We were both pretty drunk. I know, that's not a proper excuse, but it's..." an explanation didn't seem good enough. God knows that he was pretty drunk often enough that he couldn't blame every bad decision on it. "...I dunno. Maybe it's nothin'."
He hadn't quite known what she was reaching for when she couldn't find the words, just there, but now he thinks he might.
"I won't let anyone not take us seriously. Not anymore."
It really annoyed her that someone had laughed at them but Airy decided to let it go. This was a moment where she was better off not knowing because Airy was entirely the kind of person to confront whoever had done that.
"So um... do you have any questions for me?" She tugged at Cassidy's arm, pulling him down towards the bed so she could snuggle against him. She wasn't out of questions but nothing was coming to mind right now. At the same time, they were talking she wanted to keep things going. Airy didn't know if the too often would be curbed at all but they were both figuring this out and would likely talk about it if any specific situation came up. As it was, Airy felt a little bit better about how things were, as if talking had actually helped.
"I mean, about the dream or anything. I don't..." Her lips pressed together. "I don't like talking about it but I'll tell you."
Lying down. Yes. Cassidy settled back onto the bed and lifted his arm so she could curl up under it. His hand wound up resting against her hair, much like he had at the end of her dream.
He thought for a moment about what to ask. Whether he should ask in the first place. There was an appeal to leaving the past in the past... but there was also a small voice at the back of his head whispering that if he didn’t ask anything, it might look like he didn’t care.
“How did you get out?” She had said something about a fire...
Airy looped her leg around his and snuggled against his side. It was comfortable and her young more innocent nature would have even remarked that they fit together, ignoring the fact that women and men were naturally made to fit together
Her fingers gently brushed against his wrist and abdomen, little sighs to show him that she was focused on him and nothing else. "You really want to know?" She asked in a light curious tone. Airy hadn't expected Cassidy to ask her any questions but this one was a rather easy one to answer.
"I didn't know how long I was there, not at first. After the fact I was told that it was six weeks. I never got the exact dates and of course it all felt longer while I was in that cell. I was... broken. It's why there is weird magic inside of my head. At first it was to hold me together but now it's something I built around. Anyway. I don't remember a lot. There was darkness and then Taila told me to sleep." She ran her finger from his navel to his side and then back again. "Then I remember darkness and then fire. It wasn't like a burning pain but a comforting one. I found out later that it'd been Nathan. He'd found others to come rescue me and in doing so... he'd been the one to find me. He burned everyone there except for me. I don't know why or how but I do know that after that he had to leave. I met him recently before arriving here in the castle but I'm not sure if he is the same as the friend I had before. For a while it was just me, him and Antonio. After all that, things changed. I was safe, he was gone and learning to control his powers."
Airy had understood later but she never really forgave Nathan for leaving her alone when she needed someone by her side. She'd been beyond shattered then and it'd taken a long time to put herself back together.
Nathan. Cassidy had gotten a distinctive protective vibe off the guy which had been all too familiar. Although it seemed like Airy, if she even recognized it for what it was, hadn’t taken it any further than that.
“He saved your life, and then he took off?” He asked, like what a shame.
Airy nodded her head in a sad but confirming gesture. "Yeah." Nathan had always had a lot of problems, a lot of anger, but Airy had been sad when he left without a word. No one liked to feel abandoned. "It kinda sucked but I had Antonio with me. He help me stay myself and heal."
He had also stopped Airy from accidentally making herself disappearing.
"Is that all?" Her fingers ran in a lazy line up and down his chest. "Um... while this weird dream thing is happening? If it's still happening. Is it okay if I crash here? I just. I'm worried that it might still be happening."
It could be all for now, definitely. Cassidy didn't want to make her dwell any further on something she didn't like to talk about.
His fingers trailed lightly through her hair. She'd be welcome to stay in his bed for a while, if the dreams were bothering her -- he'd even do her one better. "Hell, we could spend the whole day together today, if y'want. I've got nothin' else."
As if he ever had anything else planned, here, outside of seeing her every few days.
"Really?" Airy perked up, her expression brightening to it's usual fantastic radiance. She had been weighed down by the dreams and thrown a little off but Airy never stopped being a glowing ray of light. "Can I hold you down to the bed and have my way with you?" She laughed softly as she snuggled against his side. She wasn't tired or interested in going back to sleep but she liked feeling close to him and next to sex, snuggling let her feel close to him.
Maybe they can take a bath together or explore more of the city. Airy went through a lot of things they could do in the back of her mind and, while it wasn't one of their usual days to meet, she was happy to commandeer Cassidy's time.
"Oof," Cassidy sighed, like she might be hugging him a bit too tight. This conversation had been a fucking rollercoaster, and after everything, the sudden burst of affection had him a little dizzy...
...but his smile was still fond, and he squeezed her back playfully. "Why? Is there some way you want it?"
She closed her eyes and pressed her face against his shoulder, inhaling the pleasant scent of his skin. Her insides were all in knots but she felt lighter. "Maybe I just want to be in charge. Pay you back for that dream." I'd been a little rough but what surprised Airy the most was that she hadn't hated the feeling. In fact, she kind of liked it. It was different and different was sometimes fun.
After everything, she wanted to focus on things that were fun; on Cassidy.
“Hng.” He sighed through his nose, a little curl of excitement appearing in his lips. Maybe they’d have a use for that dress after all, once he’d got it. “You’ll pin me to the bed and put your paws all over me...?”
He had a second to think about how sexy that sounded before he remembered that he was describing what he’d done to her in the dream. Context being everything, maybe there’d be a time he could imagine being that rough with her in a good way, but — not today. Dream Cassidy had been a revisit to a darker period of his past.
Maybe they needed just one more thing to finish chasing away the ghosts.
Airy shifted and rolled them so that she was straddling Cassidy's hips. Her palms pulled his sweat pants down enough to free his cock, a devious smirk tugging at the corner of her mouth. It'd been a long night and she wanted something simple and easy, without the drugs making her feel like she was dreaming again.
She leaned forward, pressing her kiss against his as she used her hand to get him hard. "No. I want you first and then we smoke and then I'll leave what we do next up to you."
She nipped at his lower lip and then rose so she was sitting on top of him.
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Date: 2018-07-25 01:54 am (UTC)She didn't want to get used to sleeping alone but she understood the necessity. If she went home... she'd be alone and would likely have to get used to it too. "Well, if you ever don't want to be alone. You should come to my room. I'd say let's do it both ways but that doesn't really seem fair." Since she'd just admitted to not liking sleeping alone.
"I look too. I mean you were there when we were both ogling Thor." That had been a fun relaxing afternoon.
Airy shifted a bit as Cassidy finally answered her question. She looked up at him and tried to figure out what he meant. "Too often?" Did that mean he did sleep around a lot more? Did he not want too? Did he feel bad? It was hard to tell but his tone had changed and Airy didn't know what that meant.
After this whole mess she didn't really want to assume anything else.
"Wait.. what?" Airy wanted to ask about his previous inflection with the words 'too often' but now she was also thinking about Matt. "He said that? He always keeps telling me he doesn't want to come between us. I kind of talk to him about things hoping for a level of perspective or balance... we see how that might not always work anyway." She pouted a bit.
Airy's been on a whirlwind of emotions in the last twenty minutes and they were all jumbled together now.
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Date: 2018-07-25 02:14 am (UTC)Look, Airy, you’d put it right there for him. He was even going to dare a bit of a wicked smile. Comin’ between us. Eh? Eh?
He let his effort to lighten the mood linger in the air for a moment before going on.
“Yeah... a bit too often.” It was hard to explain what made it feel like that. He wasn’t exactly bothered by the sex itself. More... more the framing of it. “I mean, I’m not one to put up much resistance to temptation, most days. And people here, they don’t seem to put stock in any sort of commitment whatsoever. One person... I asked if it bothered her that I had a girlfriend, and she laughed in me face. Bloody brutal, now that I’m thinkin’ about it.”
He didn’t know what to add to that, beyond: “I’m sorry, Airy. I shoulda known better.”
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Date: 2018-07-25 02:24 am (UTC)She smiled at him and then playfully punched his shoulder, "You know what I meant. Though, yeah, I imagine him being literally between us maybe won't be too bad or maybe I can be in the middle since you guys are taller than me..." This wasn't what she'd planned to think about right now.
The thought was waved away as she focused on Cassidy's explanation.
"Wait. You're serious. Someone actually laughed at you?" That pissed Airy off. Not that Cassidy slept with this person, that was it's own kind of bad judgment, but that they had laughed at their relationship. "Wow." She sat back a little bit, just absorbing that knowledge. "And you slept with them?" She had no really strong feels about that part, maybe disappointment and then just annoyed that this person had laughed at their relationship.
She hummed softly. "So, you're sorry." Cassidy was sorry a lot sometimes but sorry didn't mean that anything was going to change. "Is that like, you're going to maybe be a little more... I can't think of a nice way to say it." She was thinking something along the lines of self respect. She wanted people to know they were dating, she'd told people, but that's because that relationship should be respected... not laughed at.
Maybe that really bothered her.
"Be honest with me Cass, is it weird that the laughing part of the story bothers me more than the sleeping with part."
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Date: 2018-07-25 04:40 am (UTC)"We were both pretty drunk. I know, that's not a proper excuse, but it's..." an explanation didn't seem good enough. God knows that he was pretty drunk often enough that he couldn't blame every bad decision on it. "...I dunno. Maybe it's nothin'."
He hadn't quite known what she was reaching for when she couldn't find the words, just there, but now he thinks he might.
"I won't let anyone not take us seriously. Not anymore."
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Date: 2018-07-25 11:45 am (UTC)It really annoyed her that someone had laughed at them but Airy decided to let it go. This was a moment where she was better off not knowing because Airy was entirely the kind of person to confront whoever had done that.
"So um... do you have any questions for me?" She tugged at Cassidy's arm, pulling him down towards the bed so she could snuggle against him. She wasn't out of questions but nothing was coming to mind right now. At the same time, they were talking she wanted to keep things going. Airy didn't know if the too often would be curbed at all but they were both figuring this out and would likely talk about it if any specific situation came up. As it was, Airy felt a little bit better about how things were, as if talking had actually helped.
"I mean, about the dream or anything. I don't..." Her lips pressed together. "I don't like talking about it but I'll tell you."
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Date: 2018-07-25 11:40 pm (UTC)He thought for a moment about what to ask. Whether he should ask in the first place. There was an appeal to leaving the past in the past... but there was also a small voice at the back of his head whispering that if he didn’t ask anything, it might look like he didn’t care.
“How did you get out?” She had said something about a fire...
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Date: 2018-07-26 02:26 am (UTC)Her fingers gently brushed against his wrist and abdomen, little sighs to show him that she was focused on him and nothing else. "You really want to know?" She asked in a light curious tone. Airy hadn't expected Cassidy to ask her any questions but this one was a rather easy one to answer.
"I didn't know how long I was there, not at first. After the fact I was told that it was six weeks. I never got the exact dates and of course it all felt longer while I was in that cell. I was... broken. It's why there is weird magic inside of my head. At first it was to hold me together but now it's something I built around. Anyway. I don't remember a lot. There was darkness and then Taila told me to sleep." She ran her finger from his navel to his side and then back again. "Then I remember darkness and then fire. It wasn't like a burning pain but a comforting one. I found out later that it'd been Nathan. He'd found others to come rescue me and in doing so... he'd been the one to find me. He burned everyone there except for me. I don't know why or how but I do know that after that he had to leave. I met him recently before arriving here in the castle but I'm not sure if he is the same as the friend I had before. For a while it was just me, him and Antonio. After all that, things changed. I was safe, he was gone and learning to control his powers."
Airy had understood later but she never really forgave Nathan for leaving her alone when she needed someone by her side. She'd been beyond shattered then and it'd taken a long time to put herself back together.
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Date: 2018-07-28 12:21 am (UTC)“He saved your life, and then he took off?” He asked, like what a shame.
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Date: 2018-07-28 03:03 am (UTC)He had also stopped Airy from accidentally making herself disappearing.
"Is that all?" Her fingers ran in a lazy line up and down his chest. "Um... while this weird dream thing is happening? If it's still happening. Is it okay if I crash here? I just. I'm worried that it might still be happening."
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Date: 2018-07-28 11:57 pm (UTC)His fingers trailed lightly through her hair. She'd be welcome to stay in his bed for a while, if the dreams were bothering her -- he'd even do her one better. "Hell, we could spend the whole day together today, if y'want. I've got nothin' else."
As if he ever had anything else planned, here, outside of seeing her every few days.
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Date: 2018-07-29 07:13 pm (UTC)Maybe they can take a bath together or explore more of the city. Airy went through a lot of things they could do in the back of her mind and, while it wasn't one of their usual days to meet, she was happy to commandeer Cassidy's time.
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Date: 2018-07-29 07:52 pm (UTC)...but his smile was still fond, and he squeezed her back playfully. "Why? Is there some way you want it?"
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Date: 2018-07-29 07:59 pm (UTC)She closed her eyes and pressed her face against his shoulder, inhaling the pleasant scent of his skin. Her insides were all in knots but she felt lighter. "Maybe I just want to be in charge. Pay you back for that dream." I'd been a little rough but what surprised Airy the most was that she hadn't hated the feeling. In fact, she kind of liked it. It was different and different was sometimes fun.
After everything, she wanted to focus on things that were fun; on Cassidy.
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Date: 2018-07-29 09:28 pm (UTC)He had a second to think about how sexy that sounded before he remembered that he was describing what he’d done to her in the dream. Context being everything, maybe there’d be a time he could imagine being that rough with her in a good way, but — not today. Dream Cassidy had been a revisit to a darker period of his past.
Maybe they needed just one more thing to finish chasing away the ghosts.
“D’you wanna smoke a j first?”
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Date: 2018-07-29 09:35 pm (UTC)She leaned forward, pressing her kiss against his as she used her hand to get him hard. "No. I want you first and then we smoke and then I'll leave what we do next up to you."
She nipped at his lower lip and then rose so she was sitting on top of him.