Airy looked up to meet his gaze and felt her heart quiver in her chest. Cassidy always had the affect on her, he made her feel things that no one else had or could. She wanted to know if it was the same for him, what he was feeling or maybe there was a way to compare, but maybe somethings you couldn't compare.
"That's a good answer." Her voice was very soft as she leaned against his side. Airy wouldn't have thought he was serious if he jumped at the chance to have a family with her. Even she balanced the line between wanting a family and wishing the desire would leave her alone. Maybe was a good answer, it meant he thought about it and it meant that he hadn't dismissed it completely.
She closed her eyes and leaned against his shoulder, inhaling the musk and heat of his shirt. She wanted to cry but she knew that it wouldn't really make things better. It wouldn't make things worse except that then she'd get tears everywhere.
"I wish I could see myself like that." Airy whispered against his side. "Maybe I wouldn't be such a doofus about all this. I hate feeling like I'm not enough." She kept her eyes closed and exhaled a slow unsure breath. "Can I ask the question I asked before? About you looking for other people to sleep with? I know I've done it once. It was with Matt. I wanted to talk to him about you and I couldn't really do that with anyone else or with you. I prefer you but sometimes I just let things happen. I feel bad about it too or like maybe it's uneven. Then I usually end up missing you."
Airy shook her head. "I bet that all sounds really dumb doesn't it? But I also hate sleeping alone though. So it's very easy to miss you." She didn't know what else she was saying but she wanted to talk and she wanted Cassidy to talk too. Maybe the question she asked wasn't the one she met but she didn't know how to put her questions into words.
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"That's a good answer." Her voice was very soft as she leaned against his side. Airy wouldn't have thought he was serious if he jumped at the chance to have a family with her. Even she balanced the line between wanting a family and wishing the desire would leave her alone. Maybe was a good answer, it meant he thought about it and it meant that he hadn't dismissed it completely.
She closed her eyes and leaned against his shoulder, inhaling the musk and heat of his shirt. She wanted to cry but she knew that it wouldn't really make things better. It wouldn't make things worse except that then she'd get tears everywhere.
"I wish I could see myself like that." Airy whispered against his side. "Maybe I wouldn't be such a doofus about all this. I hate feeling like I'm not enough." She kept her eyes closed and exhaled a slow unsure breath. "Can I ask the question I asked before? About you looking for other people to sleep with? I know I've done it once. It was with Matt. I wanted to talk to him about you and I couldn't really do that with anyone else or with you. I prefer you but sometimes I just let things happen. I feel bad about it too or like maybe it's uneven. Then I usually end up missing you."
Airy shook her head. "I bet that all sounds really dumb doesn't it? But I also hate sleeping alone though. So it's very easy to miss you." She didn't know what else she was saying but she wanted to talk and she wanted Cassidy to talk too. Maybe the question she asked wasn't the one she met but she didn't know how to put her questions into words.
"I'm just talking."