[She turns his face to look at her, and now she's taking up almost his entire field of vision. It's partially a trick of the eye caused by his hallucinating brain, and Cassidy knows that, but it doesn't mean he can do anything about it. He finds himself feeling as though he's looking up at her, as if she's taken over the sky and the world for a moment, just to deliver this message.
The concept of destiny and the universe or God having a plan is total bullshit. As far as Cassidy's concerned, this might as well be Exhibit A. In a just universe, in one that made sense, he and Airy never would've met.
None of that changes the fact that, despite the infinite number of potential paths and possibilities, they did. Every event of a hundred and twenty years, every choice that shaped him, every personal disaster... they didn't lead him anywhere else. They led him here.
For reasons he couldn't start to explain, things change when she uses his first name. She shrinks down and becomes a normal, Airy-sized person again, and he's just a man sitting on the edge of a walkway with a mostly-eaten tray of fries in his lap. Who is suddenly feeling exhausted and a little teary-eyed.]
I never meant for anyone t'get hurt. [Look, he knows how quickly this escalated. In a distant corner of his mind that still recognizes reality, he knows. Unfortunately, the only thing having that knowledge does is make it worse.] Christ...
[He doesn't want to disengage from her too much, but he does lift a hand to wipe down his face.]
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The concept of destiny and the universe or God having a plan is total bullshit. As far as Cassidy's concerned, this might as well be Exhibit A. In a just universe, in one that made sense, he and Airy never would've met.
None of that changes the fact that, despite the infinite number of potential paths and possibilities, they did. Every event of a hundred and twenty years, every choice that shaped him, every personal disaster... they didn't lead him anywhere else. They led him here.
For reasons he couldn't start to explain, things change when she uses his first name. She shrinks down and becomes a normal, Airy-sized person again, and he's just a man sitting on the edge of a walkway with a mostly-eaten tray of fries in his lap. Who is suddenly feeling exhausted and a little teary-eyed.]
I never meant for anyone t'get hurt. [Look, he knows how quickly this escalated. In a distant corner of his mind that still recognizes reality, he knows. Unfortunately, the only thing having that knowledge does is make it worse.] Christ...
[He doesn't want to disengage from her too much, but he does lift a hand to wipe down his face.]
God, I am so bloody stoned right now. Jesus.