Airy flinched as Cassidy commanded Pudge to return to his bowl. She'd honestly forgot that he was there but now her gaze went back to him. She watched as the little fish wiggled and put another layer on top of him. One that she wondered if she'd even tell Cassidy about.
Maybe later... after... after all this.
Her attention returned to Cassidy as he spoke. Parts of. That was natural. It wasn't as if they've had years together. They were both still learning about each other but this place kept making Airy want something more since she couldn't have what she was used too.
"It's selfish of me... isn't it? To keep asking you for things. I'm really sorry. I don't think you've ever done that but I'm... insecure. Everyone here is prettier than I am, more confident. I really don't get it and it's stupid. I wouldn't want to be anyone else but I'm scared that if we go wherever that I'll lose you and you'll find someone else you'd rather spend your time with." Airy reached for his hand and let her fingers lace through his. "You don't have to say anything. I know it's my problem. I've never had oodles of confidence and... I mean everyone here is ridiculously gorgeous." It was weird and in this particular instance, uncomfortable.
"So one question and... you can ask me questions too, I mean, if you want." She gently turned over his hand and began to draw lines in his palm. "Would you want to have a family with me? Not here and not now. But if we ever got to your home or mine. Would you want to have a kid and a life where we're a family? I realize that's a lot of what-if's but... as messed up as that dream was... it was nice too. I didn't think I could have something like that after every but... you kinda made me hope for it again. Denis is a cute name."
She tried to keep her tone even and her expression light but Airy was sad. It wasn't a feeling that she could completely shake and she was never good at hiding how she felt.
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Date: 2018-07-24 08:07 pm (UTC)Maybe later... after... after all this.
Her attention returned to Cassidy as he spoke. Parts of. That was natural. It wasn't as if they've had years together. They were both still learning about each other but this place kept making Airy want something more since she couldn't have what she was used too.
"It's selfish of me... isn't it? To keep asking you for things. I'm really sorry. I don't think you've ever done that but I'm... insecure. Everyone here is prettier than I am, more confident. I really don't get it and it's stupid. I wouldn't want to be anyone else but I'm scared that if we go wherever that I'll lose you and you'll find someone else you'd rather spend your time with." Airy reached for his hand and let her fingers lace through his. "You don't have to say anything. I know it's my problem. I've never had oodles of confidence and... I mean everyone here is ridiculously gorgeous." It was weird and in this particular instance, uncomfortable.
"So one question and... you can ask me questions too, I mean, if you want." She gently turned over his hand and began to draw lines in his palm. "Would you want to have a family with me? Not here and not now. But if we ever got to your home or mine. Would you want to have a kid and a life where we're a family? I realize that's a lot of what-if's but... as messed up as that dream was... it was nice too. I didn't think I could have something like that after every but... you kinda made me hope for it again. Denis is a cute name."
She tried to keep her tone even and her expression light but Airy was sad. It wasn't a feeling that she could completely shake and she was never good at hiding how she felt.