It was good to feel the weight of her, how she settled against him and wrapped her arms around him. Definitely felt more solid, more real, then the dream.
That’s what he was going to tell himself, anyway.
Denis. Cassidy suddenly felt a less pleasant weight in his chest, and if he’d sunk through the mattress and on through the floor in that moment, it would have been fine with him. That had actually been her, there. And he’d really said — he’d really done —
He didn’t know how long he’d been silent following her question, but it had probably been too long.
“Yeah. That happened.” He’d really pawed at her like that, breathed his whiskey breath all over her and gotten all maudlin about his ‘mistakes’... Cassidy swiped a hand across his forehead.
“God, I’m a wanker. I am the biggest wanker in the entire world.”
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Date: 2018-07-18 11:07 pm (UTC)That’s what he was going to tell himself, anyway.
Denis. Cassidy suddenly felt a less pleasant weight in his chest, and if he’d sunk through the mattress and on through the floor in that moment, it would have been fine with him. That had actually been her, there. And he’d really said — he’d really done —
He didn’t know how long he’d been silent following her question, but it had probably been too long.
“Yeah. That happened.” He’d really pawed at her like that, breathed his whiskey breath all over her and gotten all maudlin about his ‘mistakes’... Cassidy swiped a hand across his forehead.
“God, I’m a wanker. I am the biggest wanker in the entire world.”